I am willing
to help her; at any rate, I can stir the mayonnaise.
* * * * *
How stupid of me to have given Lillie my tortoiseshell combs! How can I
ask to have them back without seeming rude? Joergen was used to them;
he will miss them at once.
I have had out all my dresses, but I cannot make up my mind what to
wear. I cannot appear in the morning in a dinner dress, and a white
frock--at my age!... After all, why not?... The white embroidered
one ... it fits beautifully. I have never worn it since Joergen's last
visit to us in the country. It has got a little yellow from lying by,
but he will never notice it.
* * * * *
To-night _I will_ sleep--sleep like a top. Then I shall wake, take my
bath, and go for a long walk. When I come home, I will sit in the garden
and watch until the white boat appears in the distance.
* * * * *
I had to take a dose of veronal, but I managed to sleep round the clock,
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